These past few months, my life has gone downhill. It all started when my bad leg took its course for a week and that the routine i worked hard to maintain got ruined.
Let me tell you, last month i decided to devote my life as a healthy person, really healthy that i started to feel good about my body because i always had a body issue. Some of my friends noticed that i lost weight, and i was pretty happy about it and i proudly told them about my diet. And my diet was just the tip of an iceberg, because i redesigned my life, i even set the right time of my body clock and wake up pretty early in the morning. I even cooked my breakfast and shower and just feel alive the whole day.
It all went smoothly until the very unfortunate day, i won't go into details but i hate how my bad leg can change the entire rhythm of my life, it's like a wrong key that you can't help not hitting. After that, i felt so lifeless, i started to eat unhealthy food, sleep late and wake up late, i dont even shower anymore (only when there's no class lol).
That's the thing about me, if i missed the step 1, the entire routine will be ruin. I have to follow the correct steps of how i designed them to work in my life.
Weeks had passed, i realized that im going nowhere. I realized that this is not what i want for my life, i have to snap out of it, i have to be alive again because that's what im here for in the first place. I dont want to mope around and blame my bad leg why im living the kind of life im in right now. I have to wake up and save myself from the illusions i created because this is my life, im in charge and i have the power and control over it.
So im starting over again. I just hope that my bad leg would lay low for a while so i can handle the things that i have to deal with.
Okay, i know that im not supposed to be whiny about this since Christmas is coming, but in my defense, i have to be whiny about it in order to see and hear myself of how im doing before Christmas, because i have to be whole, alive and happy during that joyful day, and not just for that day, but for the whole entire year.
Anyway, i hope you are happy with your life right now, if not, then change for the better.